ED's and Diabetes

So,
After reading a very intersting article, "The Minnesota Starvation Experiment", I began to think about how, after being diagnosed with Type I Diabetes at 12 and given an extensive list of every food item on the planet, the amount of calories on them and thus the direct impact of food on my body. Almost immediately I became neurotic about my food intake; always dreaming of becoming an anorexic and picturing myself frail and vulnerable. These issues were catapulted by the diagnosis since I had always feelt heavy and a burden to my parents. I believed that if I was a sick child, my mother would be compassionate and caring. Instead, she was mad as hell when I was diagnosed, asking God, "Why me? , Why me?". Of course, not wanting to upset her more, I grieved in silence. After all, it was my fault. Wasn't it?
fast forward 10 years. I am still sick, very much so. Emotionally, mentally and physically. I have developed an addiction to sleeping pills and many other self destructive behaviours.
I am looking for an outlet to tell my story because I know as a fact that about 33% of diabetic patients develop some kind of disordered eating pattern. What else can I say? I am not a victim but I have not had it easy either. And I want to listen to others and I want to be heard as well.
If you are reading this and want to chat please do so!!!